Insist on things are like this

From the start I did not hold any hope, come now, I'm holding on forever (Diablo iii Gold), what is it, each time after playing, I will think why is it so selfish, thinking only of your own, just think about now, and all the people and the future is being left behind, we still have much time to waste, there is people had told me that, while the mind or the state of learning, and learn mor. All along I never think about, I feel the brain quickly rust, sometimes, I really hope someone scolded me awake, what else can I do, to sink so? I feel like I'm a shell, no vitality, I adhere to become meaningless, always said that I insist, but I also insist how long, three minutes enthusiasm, what is the use, only by mouth and say, what is the use, really do have a few.I know that I lack of energy and confidence, and that the mind, think of the teacher said, "You don't fit in." Maybe, I don't have the talent; I just have it cheap diligence. I can give up, I can't, the way of their choice, kneels must also walk it, this is my unyielding attitude. I adhere to the ideal, but to give up the dream, I adhere to the life the only way which must be passed, but to give up the principle of life, I adhere to the professional, but also to give up the opportunity to study. I insist on give up, I don't know which one is good, but have no chance to begin again. I still remember insist, insist on what I hold on. Give up is not necessarily good.